Tuesday, August 10, 2010

How can you tell if you are an alcoholic?

Ok, so I have a question, cause I'm confused. I have a son in recovery and i have been in al-anon for a couple of years, but it has always been in the back of my mind that i might be an alcoholic. I can say for sure that in my past, I would binge drink; my goal was to get drunk, not just to ';enjoy'; the evening. I could never be a designated driver (because thats not fair that I can't drink). when I get to drinking, i don't know when to stop - 12-16 drinks and shots.....I always had to have 2 drinks on the table whenever i drank, and I would get really annoyed when i ran out. Bourbon and tequila shot on the side. No beer and I could drink a whole bottle of wine without a problem. I would drink till i was stumbling, and throwing up. I had 1 blackout and don't ever remember passing out....I never had any consequences; no jail, never lost a job becasue of my drinking, no dui's (although sad to admit that I should have), no relationship problems because of my drinking. and I was never a daily drinker and rarely drank at home by myself.





But here's where i get confused.....I wonder if I could be a periodic; i have drank 3 times in the last 16 mos. two times i only had 1 drink and the other time i had 4. i Also, I am in a relationship with a recovering alcoholic (we live together)





Because my son is in recovery, I ';stopped'; drinking, no liquor in the house at all, but I would go out and drink, what i thought was socially, at times.





So I've taken those online alcohol tests and they have all come back saying.....your drinking patterns can be considered risky or harmful.....





I attend AA speaker meetings weekly and weekly Al-anon meetings as well. I feel more comfortablw in the rooms of AA; don't know if Its because of the fellowship is different from my Al-anon home group or not.





I am a child of an alcoholic and my mother was an alcoholic/addict. It wouldn't surprise me if I am an alcoholic, i guess I'm just confused because I really haven't drank over the last 16 months....i wonder if I'm just in denial....





Any advice would be appreciatedHow can you tell if you are an alcoholic?
keep going to the AA mtgs and don't worry about a labelHow can you tell if you are an alcoholic?
if you have a drink every morning afternoon and evening

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